Sunday, December 7, 2014

How Grounded Am I?

I have been on this journey to wellness, with the aid of input form my best friend, mostly alone. Which meant to me that I was the one who had to fix what damage life had done to me.

You may not be responsible for the wound you receive, but you are responsible for the healing of your wound there after.

I finally found my happy medium. I had taken ownership of my energy and made huge progress with healing. I learned about energy and chakras, the energy centers of my body.

I found a chakra cleansing and activating mediation and listened to an activating frequency afterward. 
I finally had peace about writing about my journey as a single mother and I busted out 1,377 words. 

I rested the following day, and on Thursday something incredible happened. I connected with a guy with good energy. I did not expect it to happen. I have a focus on my wellness, I have been working on healing my damage energy wise, I had accepted my fate to be single until I was well enough to be in a relationship.

We fell hard and fast into a place of unity that I never knew existed. Our actions were from a place of comfort and understanding, and the passion an unexpected bonus to our laughter and intellectual sharing.

The message from his soul to mine is one of acceptance, appreciation, assurance, adoration, and is absolute. I am not afraid that his feelings will change. Feelings, yes, there is a whole lot of feeling going on for me.

I have not even had a chance to fully process my feelings and now he is having a wonderful paradigm shift of his financial circumstances. I wanted to be rejoicing with him, but my heart was too full, and all that came out was tears.

I went from being alone for a long time, accepting that, and then not being alone, and then being separate from the catalyst of my feeling and being connected with someone.

His heart is different, his thoughts are compassionate like mine, and he is kind beyond anything I have witnessed.

He deserves every good thing, and to be able to have the chance to show how he cares for me in his own way, and not feel not good enough.

Today when he told me, after 3 days of being together that he had a once in a lifetime opportunity to move to another city for a great job and training, I wanted to be happy and rejoice with him, but I just ended up crying. 
He wanted me to be happy and excited. I just was overwhelmed. I still have to explain that to him.

I am grounded, I am balanced and I am healthy. I just also am a woman with feelings and hormones, and I was unprepared, and taken completely by surprise.

I want this for him, I want this for us...it is just that it means a lot to try to adapt my life now to his goals and desires as well. I had no idea that I would be pulled into his world and his heart as well. 
I finally start listening to my heart and begin to become myself, and now I am pulled into a different reality that includes someone else's dreams starting to come true.

It is all so sudden. And he asks me to...to rethink and reevaluate my goals in life. It is all stardust. I must release it all to the Divine and trust that this connection will hold us together while we are in this phase of our lives.

May we both be our best selves, be successful, and continue to grow. May our paths and unity be blessed.

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Happy Mossy Feet

I had to share my day's conquered battle with you.

Today it was having food readily made so that I had no stress when I met my day.
I was able to not feel burdened, and by something so simple!

I actually had the presence of mind to enjoy my surroundings and then think to share them. Usually, I am just stressed and feeling behind the gun.

This is what the ground looks like outside. No snow today.
There is so much green everywhere here! 

There is actually moss and clover growing in the grass! You can see the dirt where deer hooves upset the ground.

I woke up later than I wanted this morning because I woke in the middle of the night to potty and my mind thought it would be a good time to come up with lyrics. Yep, that happens to me, too.
I had a very insistent pup wanting me to take her outside. 
I took the picture of the amazing foliage outside. 

Just amazing that there is so much life-giving energy outside! The air was fresh and cool! 
I love where I live!

I had a sense of satisfaction once I came inside.

I have breakfast already made!

Talk about one happy mommy! 
Peace of mind is priceless!
And my 7 year old son is happy that he can feed himself when he is hungry and not have to wait on mom.

I had resolved to make readily available food when I went to the store again.
Why?
There is nothing worse than a hungry child...or a grumpy, tired, achy, hungry mommy!

So I made 27 egg muffins, or mini-crustless quiches.

2 red potatoes shredded
a Big handful of white mushrooms chopped
1/4 of a big sweet onion chopped
sea salt, pepper, thyme and sage
1 cup White Cheddar shredded
about 1/3 cup of cream and the remainder of my ranch dressing
12 eggs beaten

Sprayed extra virgin olive oil in muffin pans and cooked at 350 degrees until the edges were brown, the middle looked cooked and it smelled amazing!

Later in the day I made a gluten free pumpkin spice cake, derived from a recipe I found online...except I used my own pumpkin puree! 
I cut open a pumpkin, took out the seeds, sprayed it with extra virgin olive oil and baked it in the oven at 350 until I could poke a fork in it all the way.

I used my bullet blender and some unsweetened almond milk to make the pumpkin puree.

I had 6 cups from half a pumpkin! Wow!

It was a real hodge-podge of ingredients with almond flour, tapioca flour and my mistakenly purchased "gluten free flour" with garbanzo bean flour. Thankfully I can't taste it afterward! 

Does anyone else experience that with garbanzo bean flour? Is there truly no taste after the item using it is baked?


Here is how I made the gluten free pumpkin spice cake

1 cup organic pumpkin puree (made with almond milk)
3 eggs
1 tablespoon ground saigon cinnamom
1/2 teaspoon ground cloves
1/2 teaspoon ground nutmeg
1/2 teaspoon ground ginger
1 teaspoon sea salt
1 cup dark brown sugar
1 cup almond flour
1/2 cup gluten free flour blend
1/2-ish cup tapioca flour

Blended with a whisk and poured into a 1 inch tall 9 x 13 inch jelly roll pan. Baked until done in the middle at 375 degrees

Frosting
1 package of cream cheese
3/4 cup powdered sugar
2 tablespoons of dark brown sugar

So, part of my making my own little slice of heaven is to have my favorite brunch items handy!

What is yours?